Do whatever it takes to get him to stay even if he says really hurtful things. If not he crashes 5 minutes later. You find it. He dies 1 week later.

  Stop obsessing over him. You're still with him and everything, but focus more on school. You won't see him for four more years. And he's as great in bed as you thought ^_^

 Get some counseling and sort your self out now because it's not going to go away over time and one day you will realize your in the exact same rut you were ten years ago

 Not everyone is as critical as your father. Find a new hero - it will make you a better person.

 You don't have to lie about yourself to get people to like you. You are fantastic without it. And if you don't stop now you'll have to face the difficult path of telling the one who loves you so much that you lied to him about yourself. I'm still trying to figure out how to do that.

 Save your virginity... at the moment it won't matter but later in life you will regret loosing it to a boy who never cared.

 Take better care of your body. You're going to regret it, and have to do a lot of hard work if you don't.

 Please, forget about him. He was never really in love with you, he just said that to get you where he wanted you. And when he was done he just tossed you aside. You deserve better. you found better. Yeah it might be hard to let go, but you need to. t's for the best. And stop missing so much school.