Don't. He's even worse than the "asshole act" that he claims to put on. He will tear you apart for two years, and it will take you more than two years (I don't even know how long yet) after that to recover. Go for the annoying lame guy. Trust me. He'll at least be easy to forget.

 Do what makes you happy. Disregard if your parents think you choose one over the other, theres nothing you can do to change that. make yourself ok first :)

 Nobody wants to hear you complain. We all have problems. With time, you will overcome and move on.

 Don't fall in love with him, run as fast as you can.

 While it's great to have lots of fun, think through all of your choices.

 You are gay. Just realize it a bit sooner. :)

 Love is not supposed to hurt. If it does, it isn't love. So let him go, a better man is waiting for his turn.

 Don't be afraid of being who u are, love yourself! Enjoy life, exercise and eat healthy this would save you a lot of self stimation problems. NEVER hurt yourself; as I told you, you are beautiful, believe in yourself