Falling in love with her and moving out of the country made you happy. But now that she's gone you are destroyed. Live your life and follow your personal dreams or else you'll be stuck in an island alone.

 Stop wasting your time looking for someone to love you, love yourself and that's all you really need.

 It was worth it.

 You know that fantasy you have about having some guy comfort you on the front porch when you're older because you're angry with mom? It happens.

 You are a beautiful, confident, and intelligent woman. Don't ever let anyone tell you different. You will be loved, You will get out, and you will show them all.

 Don't be someone you are not. Trying to impress your friends will always end badly. Always be who you are. Even if you are the most original kind of person, you will always have true friends who love you no matter what. Be who you are, do not change.

  I know things are rough, but believe in yourself. And if there ever comes a time where you doubt yourself, just remember, you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. You will succeed.

 just because he was your first love does not mean he is the one for you. after he leaves you and then decides to come back 5 years later: run, run the other way.